I catch myself constantly falling into a pit of selfish desires when the people around me are getting the things they want.
I know that I should feel happy for them, even when one of them I practically placed together...yet all I feel is pure selfishness.
Why do we focus so much on ourselves that we can't be happy for others?
I put on a mask that says I'm incredibly happy for everyone while my insides scream with pain and jealousy.
It seems like the very thing you want is the very thing everyone surround you is getting.
You begin to feel like you're being punished...or worse, that you don't deserve the desires of your heart. You've done too much wrong or you've messed up so bad that you can't have those things you truly want.
So I guess I will sit here, being contained by this selfish desire that I cannot escape.
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