PLAN for it!

So many times we sit and say, "I hope when I'm older I'll have this or that." But why do we "hope" for those things?

I was "hoping" one day about my future house, saying "I hoped" I would have a huge porch that I can sit on and read books while I drink my coffee while it is pouring down raining outside. A good friend of mine, who has been married for five years and loving everything of her life, said to me "Don't hope or wish for something...PLAN for it!" She said everything she has she planned for it! She planned to be married, she planned to live in a specific house, she planned to get her college degree, she planned to wait around 5 years to have kids (which she just found out she was pregnant!), she planned to have her own company with her husband, and so on! It makes so much sense! God knows the desires of our hearts and wants us to have them but if we don't plan for them, how do we expect them to come?

It seemed like such a ridiculous thing though to plan for a porch like I want...I should be planning other things but she said even in the small things...PLAN.

I started my nannying job today and was not looking forward to it! This guy lives on six acres of land and has a huge house! My fear of the dark doesn't mix well with either of those but upon arriving things got better! As I sit in the kitchen tonight looking out the huge 8 glass windows facing the back showing nothing but pure darkness and another huge house beautifully lit up I'm completely peaceful and in love. This house, although huge and maybe too big, its absolutely everything I want! (except my huge porch that wraps the house) ;) I've got an old Hillsong DVD playing on the TV, a few lights on the slightly light up the kitchen and the living room, and its just gorgeous. I WILL PLAN FOR THIS!

About 2 hours ago, I put Sarah to bed (she wanted to sleep in my bed so neither of us were alone!) and read her a book...The Cowboy Polka Band it was called! She pressed the music buttons as I read the story to her and it in itself was Perfect. Love filled my heart with every sweet look she gave me, with the words, "you're coming back right? you're just going to read your book right then coming back to me?" and the heavy little eyes that slowly blinked goodnight as I tucked her in. I WILL PLAN FOR THIS!

It's only been 4 hours since I've picked her up and about 6 hours since I've been at the house and I couldn't be any happier.

All in all, I will never forget the wise words of my friend...Plan for it!

XoXo
Kayla